After the Sky Fell Down by Nugen Isbell Megan

Author:Nugen Isbell, Megan [Nugen Isbell, Megan]
Language: eng
Format: epub, mobi
Publisher: Megan Nugen Isbell
Published: 2012-08-31T21:00:00+00:00

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Luke was sprawled out on the couch when she got home. He turned his head when she walked in, but she walked briskly passed him to her room before he could say anything.

She had just sat down on the bed when there was a knock on her door.

“Yeah?” she asked shortly.

“Everything okay?” Luke’s voice called.

“I’m fine,” she said abruptly and a moment later she heard him walking away. She was glad he didn’t persist on talking to her.

She found her phone at the bottom of her purse and dialed Lacey’s number, hoping she was free to talk. She had to talk to someone.

“Hey!” Lacey’s cheerful voice rang through the receiver after a few rings. “How’d things go with Jace?”

“I don’t know,” she replied listlessly.

“Is everything okay?” Lacey asked, her cheerfulness gone.

“I don’t know,” she said again.

“What do you mean you don’t know?”

“I mean I don’t know what’s wrong with me.”

“Did something happen with Jace tonight?”

“Something almost happened with Jace.”

“What? What do you mean by that?” Lacey asked pressing her friend for more details.

“He almost kissed me.”

“Yeah…but what happened?”

“I told him I had to leave.”

“Why would you do that?” Lacey asked puzzled.

“Because I didn’t like how he was making me feel.”

“Was he a creep or something?”

“No, of course not.”

“Then what was the problem?”

“The problem was…I didn’t like that he made me forget about Ben for a moment,” Kathryn admitted quietly and then Lacey understood. “Part of me wanted him to kiss me and then I realized I couldn’t betray Ben like that. You must think I’m awful.”

“What are you talking about? Why would I think you’re awful?”

“Because of what I almost let happen tonight.”

“What did you almost let happen? Jace kissing you?” Lacey asked. “I think it’s great.”

“What?” Kathryn sneered. “How is that great? Think about what I almost did to Ben.”

“Kathryn, you didn’t almost do anything to Ben,” and then Lacey took a deep breath before saying, “He’s gone.”

Kathryn’s heart stung as Lacey spoke the words. It didn’t matter how many times she heard it or thought about it, she still couldn’t accept it.

“I know that, I do, but still…”

“But still nothing. I know you still love Ben, but there’s nothing wrong with what happened tonight.”

“I feel so ashamed…like I cheated on Ben.”

“You didn’t cheat on Ben,” Lacey assured her.

“What am I doing?” Kathryn asked herself out loud and shook her head slowly from side to side before burying her face in her knees again, barely able to hold the phone to her ear.

“You’re living,” Lacey said.

Kathryn stopped and listened to Lacey knowing she was right. She knew logically she couldn’t grieve forever. She either needed to move on with her life or curl up in a hole and die too. While she had wanted to join Ben wherever he was for so long, she knew she couldn’t stop living her life and someday she would need to start living again, and maybe that time was now.

“It just feels wrong though,” Kathryn said tears beginning to blur her vision. “I miss him so much.

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